Warning:Rant post is ranty.
Recently a guild member asked why I play WoW. It was the obvious question on what keeps my interested in the game and why I’m still playing. No hidden meanings or messages, just a simple question on what gets me to login every day.
I answered with the obligatory, it’s a great game and I love the lore behind everything. Then I thought of a similar question but in completely different context, “What gives me the right to play WoW?” Now you have to understand that I’m not the most confident person in the world (I once couldn’t ask for help when my mom fractured her foot in a store). I for a time being was known as one of the worst and one of the most hated players on the server, there’s a post about it somewhere. Although many years, and a different main later I think I still retain some of that mentality. I expect to be the lowest DPS; I expect to be the last one invited to raids. I constantly feel that everyone is over there, and I’m stuck right here trying to get over there, the same goes for blogging. Don’t get me wrong this isn’t a “pity party post” or a “looking for sympathy post”, It’s just something that’s been bubbling under the surface for a while and I guess writing it out will help me through it.
I feel like I’m constantly on the defence, trying to prove that I can do this. I feel that my blog is a failure, the only reason people read it is because I post it on twitter or I tell some friends in-game that I posted something new. Why would anyone want to read my work? The only one I’m defending myself from is ME! The Blogging community is great, fantastically amazing even, not to make you think anything less of them. I guess my main point is that I’m doing everything correctly there is no I’m here they’re over there; we’re all in the same. I’ve recently learned that I’m a damn good player pulling 15k in a Zul’gurub and coming 2nd on DPS on Halfus. I’ve saved groups with some last second heals or the popping of my earth elemental. I know my rotation, spec, and glyph choices are all executed with perfection. This blog has more than I ever thought I would be able to offer. A gallery, a post of how to gear a shaman, stories of me tanking instance, Fanfiction/roleplaying posts, even a freaking webcomic (it’s kind of shitty but hey I tried!) I participate in the shared topic, in blogging events, and twitter.
Why do I blog? Because I’m a writer, My voice deserves to be heard and read. As does everyone else.
What gives me the right to play WoW? I’m a damn good player, I’m a decent healer, and I always offer help if someone needs it.
Why do I play wow? Because I love the game.
How about you? Why do you play WoW