Christmas and the New Year holiday and festivities are officially over, regardless of the themed header still up or the mini christmas tree on my nightstand (What?!? It’s just so pretty!). I guess I can’t put this post off any longer, and trust me I’ve been putting it off for quite a while. I would just disguise my inability to write as “the business of the holidays” or “needing to get back into a routine”. What “inspired” me, I don’t even know if inspired is the proper word to use here or not, anyway…. There are two bloggers who made me actually face what was going on and made me actually see where I was headed.
First of them is Saga from Spellbound. Her post, “The Honesty Clause” brought to light there standards that I was and still am playing in. Bucklers of Swash once was a great raiding guild. We had 2 group running ICC at its peak. One group was even throughly entrenched in hardmodes. Once Cataclysm was released we started to spiral downward. We we’re down to one group raiding irregularly, we were having a hard time recruiting on our dying server of Mug’thol. It looked like we were down and out. I guess you could say this all started happening when our Guild leader and his wife had a baby. They tried to run the guild but it was just too much for them. Both have full-time teaching jobs, running a large guild, and a new baby. Something had to give and you guys can guess which. I can’t and don’t blame them for leaving but around the time they did is when everything went to shit.
I do give mad props to the very fancy lady who stepped in, she was our 2nd guildleader I guess you could say. She was always in charge of the bank and of recruiting. Now she and a long time officer in our guild stepped up to run our guild. We were doing great after we server transferred, from Mug’thol to Bleeding Hollow. We got a solid raiding group together to run firelands (6/7 before 4.3 came out). Everything was going great till this holiday season. The new guild leader, the long time officer, said he rather a sci-fi MMO to a fantasy one so he is entrenched in SW:ToR, is he coming back? No idea. We barely have anyone login anymore. Without raiding there just isn’t a real reason for me to login anymore. I mean sure there’s LFR, randoms, and alts but it’s not the same without that core group of people cracking each other up in vent every other night. There’s no mention of starting raids back up on the guild forums and everyone I ask has no idea what’s going on. Is this the end of my guild? I sure hope not, I’ve played with them for 3 years. I’d be lost looking for a new home. Primarily the only reason I log in now-a-days is to do my argent tourney dailies. Yeah, that’s right to do level 80 dailies to get heirlooms for my paladin. Which at the rate things are going, is going to be pointless. Which brings me to the next blogger.
Vidyala from Manalicious, recently wrote the post, “Business Time, Hard Modes, and the “C” Word” I was reading this post late one night, sitting in my dorm room when three lines she wrote really hit me.
“Was I spending too much time on what is, ultimately, a video game? “
“Did I want this to be such a major feature of my life?”
” Could I reinvest my energy in another area?”
I started playing this game in 2006, I got hooked, I was addicted. My parents (I was 13 at the time) had to set up parental controls just so I wouldn’t spend all day and half the night on it. I obviously figured out the password and hacked in and set the hours to my choosing (and still do) but that is totally besides the point. I’ve been playing this game for almost 6 years, and no other game has caught my eye. That’s like a freakin’ marriage, and a god damn faithful one at that! I got Skyrim for Christmas which might be leading to the burn out but I have a feeling that it isn’t so much burning out as it is a realization. A few things you have to know about me is that I’m in my first year of University, studying up to be a doctor (that’s the plan anyway). Here’s the kicker, I was unsure of becoming a doctor because of all the crazy, unpredictable hours they work. It’s not what your thinking, I can assure you. I was worried that my schedule wouldn’t let me raid. That’s right. I was unsure of going into a profession that requires 4 years of high school to apply for 4 years of university, so I could apply for 4 years of medical school, so that I can apply for a 5 year internship (I want to be a surgeon) so I can then do a fellowship for however many years, so then I can do 2-3 years of specialization, before I’m a full-fledged surgeon. I was unsure if investing almost 20 years into a profession because I wasn’t sure if I could raid in 20 years. I don’t even know if WoW is still going to be around in 20 years let alone me playing it.
I have no idea what opened my eyes to this, maybe it was reading Vidyala’s post, or maybe it was me failing my calculus course. Yeah I know, it’s just hitting me. Failing that course might prevent me from getting into a medical school, leaving me with a useless biology degree. But that’s how my life has been for the past 6 years. I’ve always been thinking about WoW, if not directly playing it, I’ve been thinking about what blog posts to write or thinking about all the wonderful friends I’ve made in game and through the blogging community (I don’t regret that part at all). WoW was a HUGE part of my life and I’m beginning to think that is shouldn’t be as much, or shouldn’t even be at all.
Her third sentence made me really stop and think not only about WoW but about this blog Bag Overflow. I started blogging because I had just finished writing my book (excerpt in the about tab) and I wanted to keep my writing skills sharp till I began writing the second. Anyone want to guess how far I’ve gotten in it. If you guess 0 words you’d be correct. I set a goal this year to contact and agent or publicist by my birthday April 23rd. I actually toyed with the idea of shutting the blog down. I mean it’s not like this thing has been a huge success (I’m proud of it so I guess that counts for something). On a good day I get around 30 hits, meanwhile others get 2000. But shutting it down would feel as if I’m turning my back of all my friends in the blogging community. Turning my back on Rades and Vidyala and Ophelie and Angelya and Windsoar and Saga and Red Cow and Gauss and Anea and Kamalia so many more! So I’ve decided to keep the blog up and running even if my posting shedual becomes even more sporadic. I also started playing WoW again for more than 3o minutes today and it even got entertaining for a while, how long that lasts I don’t know but for now that’s what I’m sticking with.
As always thanks for reading, this sloppy post.